Sir,I would like to share this story in your blog:
I stand beside my room’s window. The rain is falling like cats and dogs from the dark and gloomy sky followed with the echo sound of a rainstorm. The weather as reported was not going to be good. At that time i could not stop myself from thinking someone who used to be an important person in my life. Tears of sadness kept filling my eyes and not showing any sign to stop. Her face kept on appearing in my mind.
Jessica is someone whom i cared so much. She is truly my bestfriend. Eventhough we only knew each other during the middle school but it seemed like we have known over a longer time. Everyone in my school called us twin sisters because we were always together and have never been apart. Even though we came from a different level but we never bothered about it. Jessica always told me that she would study hard so that she could support her family. She has to take all her family’s responsibilities because she is the first child in her family. I really envy her because she has never shown any despair about her family’s difficulty. I hope that that i can be just like her whom I have always known as a strong girl. She always said, “we must never give up in our lives and we must always move forward.” Jessica and me have the same ambition. We wanted to be a doctor when we grow up so we can help people in difficulty and distress..
A few months ago everything had changed. Jessica started to change. She avoided me from meeting and talking and whenever she saw me,her face would showed a sign of depression. At first, i was kind of dumbfounded with her attitude.I kept questioning myself, ‘what’s wrong with her? Does she has a problem or have I done something wrong to her?’ I didn’t give much thought because i thought that she would be having a family problem.So i just let her be. But it happened for almost a week and we still didn’t communicate among each other. When i asked her she just kept her mouth shut without any answers.I was feeling outrageous. My heart was full with anger.We stopped contacting each other.
After that, i started to hang out with a bunch of troublesome kids in my school. We played truant and broke school’s rules and regulations and since then it became my bad habits. My parent advised me not to make friend with them but I ignored them.During weekdays, we decided to hang out at the shopping mall near my house. On our way, i met Jessica and both of us were stunned. When she saw me, she quickly ran towards me and without hesitation she slapped on my right cheek. Obviously, i was very angry.I tried to do the same towards her but when i saw her teary eyes I decided to hold my hand.We have a big quarrel at the roadside.So she told me to stop hanging out with a bunch of troublesome kids. But i just answered her not to lay her finger in my life anymore. All her advises just fell on my deaf ears.. I left her in disgust crossing the road like nothing happened.
Suddenly there was a red car driven at high speed and moving towards me. It didn’t show any sign of slowing down. I couldn’t move my legs because it happened too fast and i felt my legs were stucked.I could hear Jessica’s voice screaming my name at the top of her voice. When i saw that car approached me, my legs kept shaking and my forehead was full of sweat. I could not do anything at that time and i just closed my eyes tightly and waited for a death to pick me up. My mind could not stop thinking about my mistakes with my parents and also towards Jessica. At that moment i felt like my back had been pushed from behind and my body was moved to the front. When i turned my head,i saw Jessica was flying in the air and her body was thrown up about 5 metres from the car. Without hesitation, i ran towards her and i held her right hand.I can saw fresh blood flowing profusely from her forehead and mouth. Her face still showed a pale smile and my ears can heard her words, “you are my bestfriend forever!”. That was the last time i heard her voice and i knew that she had left me forever.
During Jessica’s funeral, her parents gave me a letter that was written by Jessica. Everything was revealed at that time. Jessica actually had a leukaemia stage 3 and the doctor who treated her already told that she would never have any chance of recovering. Jessica knew that she would die so she concealed about her illness. She also stayed herself away from me so, i would not feel sadness from losing her. I cursed myself for my stupidity because i left her when she needed me. I was just a selfish person who didn’t know how to understand a friend’s feeling but it was too late to regret. Tears of sadness flowed down my cheeks. Now i realised the value of a true friend.
MAAHAD MUHAMMADI PEREMPUAN-PTD 22